How do you feel right now?

[maddox]

So, here I am again.
I sometimes use the laptop but mostly administration stuff, I generally use my phone or tablet a lot more.
Since august '23 a lot has happened.
Dealing with two kids, 17 and 20, household, work, financial shit....but...
On the bright side...met a beautiful and sweet lady who sadly had endured the same shit as i did, lost her husband after a 2 year struggle of cancer, but what started as two people talking about the loss of their beloved, we soon kissed, think after the fourth date (lol) and we're still a couple.
We both have our demons from time to time but we're happy that we're in a relationship.
Kids....hers and mine, sometimes aren't but that's obvious.

Sounds perfect but it sometimes isn't . In fact, it's complicated with our history.
We respect each previous lives and there is room for laughter and good times and such.
I have been depressed for the past two months, been at home ever since, but things are looking good for me again.
Little by little, step by step i'm getting there.

How you guys been?

[erik]

Good to read you here, Maddox! Happy to hear you are finding your way after all that has happened, with the inevitable ups and downs, with someone who understands and has gone through the same experience.

Things are pretty well, I do not post a lot here I must confess, Teunis is the last man standing on the forum. I am very much looking forward to the Arena anniversary gig in Zoetermeer, 30 years is quite a number, getting old. But first Steven Wilson tomorrow!

[Teunis]

Good to see you back Maddox and glad you've found some happiness after what you've gone through. Hope it'll work with your mutual kids.

I'm fine, enjoying life with 4 grandchildren. I'm getting old . Such a blessing!

[Peter]

Cheers, folks, for keeping some of the chit chat alive on this ole forum of ours.

Yeah, life. Man, we all have it. The longer you're in it, the more you think, and thinking is ok, as long as it's not destructive - especially when you're thinking about yourself. Sometimes I envy people that don't. Maybe they do, but to me it looks like they don't.

My wife and I moved in with her dad about a year ago. He's 89, and needs help. He was OK with it, we rearranged the house so that we all have our space, except for the space that's really shared. Turns out, that his life has led him into a tunnel of routines that are impossible to break. Results are everything from suprising, to nerve-wrecking, to sad, and other emotions. On top he's convinced, he doesn't need help. In the last thress months he "burned" about 2000€, by taking 500€ off his account in cash, and forgetting where he put it. He's simply not a team player, and he can't learn new things, ways, routines etc. Too much for our nerves, so we move out again, next month. We tried.
Our sons, who we "left behind" in our apartment, to establish a flat-share with two additional students, now have a life of their own, of which we are scarcely a part of anymore.

Hard truths, that need processing in the next few months.

But hey, we have music. Makes life easier in so many ways. I started singing more again. Good for my soul.